Issues in life & loads of crap

I don't know if I just want to be friends with him or is there something more. Cause having close guy friends are cool! (: they help you out with a lot of stuff girl close friends can't :(
But I don't want to start anything now, just want to act dumb but is actually very smart hahaha (BHB? I think so too. eeyerrrr Gross.) "I want to be a millionaire so freaking bad~"
RANDOM KARAOKE SESSION! (:
Ahhh class chalet headache! Everyone's not free! :(
Ok I want to do super well in academics as well as befriend my whole class (:
Dango Dango Dango Dango Dango Daikazoku :D

Balloon Festival!

Hey guysssss!!! School started and what have I been doing? This: (lots of effort, brain wrecking, bursting and popping) enjoy~ Tgger, Perry the Platypus, Donald Duck, Toy Story Alien, Pluto & Garfield
Hoho! Added a few new pieces, can you spot em? Idk why I didn't write a new entry :( retardedness

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Recently, my mind's either not on anything or on everything! I have no idea how I spent the previous day or how I'm going to spend my next day unlike last time when I actually made an effort to plan.
So I've suddenly became ASSISTANT class rep though I had no intention of taking up a class position since I already have a cca but experience is good. I thank the PERSON who had so much faith in me as to PERSONALLY pass the responsibility to me haha! (NO REALLY, I AM SERIOUS!)
So it seems like an eventful new sem is up ahead. :D WELL WE GOT TO HAVE FUN SO.......LET'S NERF WAR!!!

Fame

"Right now, we are alive! And in this moment, I swear, we are infinite"
I've been watching lots of [Perks of being a Wallflower] movie trailers and recent events made me think of the topic Popularity. When you're popular, you're well liked by people.
It seems that I'm among a bunch of people who are really really popular (secondary school friends) and I'm like the only one who doesn't really stand out much. Well, it's ok to not stand out but sometimes, my presence is just completely ignored. The feeling of being left out or being ignored is worse than the feeling of loneliness.
I'm really glad my life story's changing for the better! I've found friends with similar interests in Poly and I seem to get along well with them. The problem here is I'm clinging too much to the past; all the old slangs and way of speech. I guess I really miss my PL days but there's nothing I can do now. I'll have to keep looking forward and lock these good times in my memory! (:
Maybe fame will no longer be of importance to me one day!

Side track, I made rainbow cupcakes quite awhile back and ate at The Factory yesterday, awesome place and do try some Ootoro! It's heavenly :D and the cool animal dimsum from my grandmother's birthday lunch!!! :D okay, I'm a happy person. Period.

Painful experience

Friends are super important to me. They are like the biggest part of my life and yet the word "friend" tends to be causing me the most grieve.
I have lots of great friends but everyone has their own "best friend" at this age and I happened to have lost mine. So I'm the only one in search for a best friend while everyone has theirs. You know... Being forgotten/neglected/ignored is a painful experience and because I have those experiences before, I tend to be on my guard. This prevents me from truly opening up to the people around me. The fear of losing the relationship and getting hurt time and again is the huge barrier I have to overcome...
LORD! Help me :) Send someone to me!

I'm a terrible person

Long time no blog. Recently, I've been having anger outbursts for no apparent reason. I've become super moody over EVERYTHING! What the... I hate it when I rage for no reason cause I tend to hurt many people (not physically) and myself. I hate to be an angry person but I DON'T KNOW WHY I CAN'T HELP IT!!!! So annoyed. D,:

To work or not to work, that is the question!

Hello everyone! Yes, I'm blogging LESS nowadays. So I'm having my rather looong holidays right now and I want to work cause I'm broke but I'm lazy to get a job cause I'm... well, lazy!

CCA is a factor and unable to waste my life away is another reason that's stopping me from getting a proper job cause now I'm working at my uncle's shop... but I'm really just sitting there playing the computer and if there's a need to, refill the drink fridge.

Working is tiring/boring/not really a lot of experience in my opinion which is probably all wrong haha. FINE! I'll try to get a decent job and start probably in Oct, after my cca activities take a break :P till then peeps!

Writer signing out!
P.S. Milo rocks :D and that's the drink fridge :)